To Josefine on Your First Birthday
One year ago right now, you were still inside me. A machine spat pages to my left—my heartbeat and yours, jagged mountain ranges side by...
Namesake
Last night, on the eve of the 10-year anniversary of Nanny's passing, my daughter recognized her name for the first time. We were lying...
36 Weeks: What I've Learned About You, What I've Learned About Me
Photo by Adrian Collins Photography Early on, when mornings were still surreal with the idea of you inside me--when you were the size of...
Pregnancy Plan
The first time I heard the phrase "birth plan," I had no idea what it meant. Then I found out, and honestly, I thought it was silly--the...
Fifteen Weeks
Fifteen weeks. I'm 15 weeks pregnant. Every morning in bed, I curve my palms around the little hard globe of my lower belly. Good...
How to Perform a Resurrection
Every year on September 6, I make tortillas. And every year, they're wrong in a slightly different way. The first year, they were as hard...
On Charlie's First Birthday
Dear Charlie, The night before you were born, I woke up every two hours to check my phone for a text message from your mom. She’d been...
PCOS and Infertility: What My Doctor Didn't Tell Me--And What I'm Doing About It
Photo by Adrian Collins Photography When I made a "Health" category for this blog, I sort of hoped I wouldn't have so much to say. But...
Biopsy
As a birthday gift, my mom wanted to take me shopping. So we were in the Nordstrom shoe department and I had one leg deep in a black...
Eight Years Gone: Dancing With a Limp
“You will lose someone you can’t live without, and your heart will be badly broken, and the bad news is that you never completely get...